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July 11th, 2007


01:08 pm - Dancin' In The Street

Dancin' In The Street
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stuff!

(2 flesh wounds | Poke me with a stick)

March 15th, 2007


12:13 am - I could say only "Hello" and "Thank You Very Much"
I'm bored and haven't done this in a while!

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie

Opening Credits:
Chrono Cross: Time's New Scar OC Remix by gutzalpus

Waking Up:
Cornflake Girl by Tori Amos (I can actually see that).

First day at High School:
Tears of Stone by the Chieftains with Natalie MacMaster

Falling in Love:
Linger (Unplugged) by The Cranberries

Fight Song:
Voices Carry by Aimee Mann (So not  a fight song)

Breaking Up Song:
Subdivision by Ani DiFranco (Kind of was. Sort of. Though it really shouldn't have been.)

Prom:
Theme - Star Trek: The Next Generation (I am SUCH a nerd. And so is my prom, apparently.)

Life:
House of Smoke and Mirrors by Matthew Good (That actually fits, a bit. I haven't had a good Smoke and Mirrors session in a while. Nor an Avalanche session).

Mental Breakdown:
An Adult Lullaby by Mediaval Baebes (Goodish music, but the spelling annoys me these days.)

Driving:
Love Roller Coaster by The Red Hot Chili Peppers.

Flashback:
Moon River by Lori Cullen (Awesome cover, but the original would work better for flashbacks).

Getting Back Together:
Which Way To Be Happy by The Magic Numbers (Teehee).

Wedding:
Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas by Diana Krall (I certainly didn't download this. I think Kathryn did. Crazy!)

Birth of Child:
Crabcraft by Bjork (That's going to be one fucked up kid).

Final Battle:
All Is Full of Love by Death Cab for Cutie (Sort of a cover-song/Bjork motif we've got going here).

Death Scene:
Arabian Nights from Aladdin (What?)

Funeral Song:
Kyle's Mom's A Bitch by Cartman from South Park: Bigger Longer and Uncut (What.)


End Credits:
Planxty Burke by Clannad (That works!)

(4 flesh wounds | Poke me with a stick)

December 5th, 2006


08:01 pm - Since I'm stupid
I forgot to mention - this celebration takes place this Friday (the 8th) at nineish.

My birthday was awesome. Kathryn got me the bestest presents since the EZBake back in the day. The day after my birthday - today, that is - sucks. My laptop died, and other bad things happened. I'm currently attempting to write an essay at the library. Gragh.

(2 flesh wounds | Poke me with a stick)

November 28th, 2006


02:30 am - As my twin did verily say...
the twins turn twenty!
best night of your life

HISTORY:

twenty years ago on thursday, december 4th, 1986 two lives were brought into this world--separate, yet together. their parents sensed as much and gave them both names that start with "Ma." years later these two fated souls were brought together for reasons yet unknown. and now they're having a joint birthday party because it's convenient. plus they are fully twins so it made sense.

Not only will this be a celebration of twentyness, it will be a celebration of twin-ness and a realization of how rocking Martha and Matt truly are.

We're hitting the cloak and dagger for a wide variety of drinks (394 college street) at 9. They have an awesome selection of everything and they have a cool name - so come!

then we'll be wandering over to the boat (158 augusta) at about 10:30-11ish for all sorts of crazy fun dance party wackiness.

look, we even google mapped for you!

cloak and dagger: http://www.google.ca/maps?ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&hl=en&tab=wl&q=

the boat: http://www.google.ca/maps?ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&hl=en&tab=wl&q=

i know there's five hundred billion other things going on that night, but this is when worked for us and i think it's pretty obvious that ours is going to be the best (as the tagline would imply...). Come or zombies will eat you. Twice.

and while it is by no means necessary, if the spirit moves you and you'd like to support the cause, matt and martha are accepting all forms of alcohol and sexual favours. bring protection!


p.s. you're invited!
p.p.s. Martha = awesome.

(3 flesh wounds | Poke me with a stick)

September 19th, 2006


01:03 am - Hello, and good morning.
One must wonder what he's going to do with his life.

Nearly twenty, he is - and yet there's so little that's been done. Part of him still wants to go adventuring in Europe. Part of him wants to be the trendy, dynamite chef. Part of him wants to glide from the Golden Gate Bridge to Salt Lake, then drift along the clouds past New York and gently set down on one food in the Fountain of Bethesda. At certain points he wants to dive into books and study a romanticized past he longs to be a part of.

Regardless, for now he feels stagnant. A river that's been blocked by pebbles - just a few holes for water to drip throgh. He doesn't just want to be a person - he wants to be a whole kind of person. He's seen two thirteenths of one of hundreds of countries - and that's merely his own. There's too much to see and he hasn't done enough. He needs to do something. And not just read it in a book or watch it on a stage or screen.

For now though, he must sleep and venture outwards while glancing in.

(9 flesh wounds | Poke me with a stick)

August 12th, 2006


12:25 am - Just show me a moment that is mine, it's beauty that's blinding and unsurpassed.
So here we are again. I know it's been a while, for that I apologize. It's not that I've been horrendously busy. I just haven't been quite as idle at my computer as I had been during this past school year. 

I just bought the new Ani album, Reprieve. So far it's good, but not spectacular. I'm not even halfway through, so we'll have to see. It lacks brass and violin. 

This upcoming year is going to be an interesting one - a merger of different aspects of my past. I've got all the boys from high school with me this year, minus Stu. I'll probably even see Stu and Gula more thanks to the new job. Farnam will even be living closeby. At the same time, I have all the newer friends I've made from last year and I'm worried that many of the two spheres won't get along. I don't want to have to seperate my life, so we'll see what'll happen. All of a sudden, school seems a bit less like going away. 

I miss the JCR, I must admit. It has a vague otherworldly feeling to it when you're not there. Particularly when you're in Thornhill, which is almost the antithesis of such a place. 

I'll be downtown, but I'll have my car first semester and I'll need to drive it for work. This is something I begrudge, but the money and experience will be good. I still want to walk though, particularly when the snow comes. I keep getting romanticized flashes of images, pictures of the snow comin' down around the old U of T buildings. I'm going to miss the old Bathurst place. We'll see how this new place goes. 

I've been thinking more and more about how little time I actually have around here. Maybe it's a quarter-ish life crisis, but I'm actually starting to realize that the decisions I make now --

...Ah. There's the violin.

But as I was saying, the decisions I make now will affect what I regret I didn't do in the future. Maybe it's bleak, but I know myself. I will inevitably wonder what the other paths are and if I should have taken 'em. That doesn't mean I'm going to stay neutral for all my life. I have to make these decisions. I just also wish that I could experience all the possibilities, or at least see what they would be like. Alas, such things are not to be.

I haven't quite accomplished what I set out to at the start of the summer, and now it's almost over. There has, however, been one great accomplish ment I didn't quite expect. I'm proud of that and am happy about it. I hope it continues.

The rest however...well, we'll have to see, won't we? I can set out to do a lot of things in this long-or-short life of mine. We'll have to see what actually gets accomplished.

(5 flesh wounds | Poke me with a stick)

July 14th, 2006


10:45 pm

A lot has happened lately, which probably explains the lack of updates. It's been quite a busy summer so far, yet I haven't accomplished what I've set out to do - namely learning Latin, learning the Tin Whistle and improving my cooking. However, a lot of the bigger things have been concerning me of late.

As all of you have undoubtably heard, Bell Globemedia is buying CHUM corporation, a move which Matt points out will effectively put a good majority of Canada's mainstream media in the hands of a mere two corporations - Canwest and Bell Globemedia. The CBC will remain independent, but one must question how it will be able to compete with two juggernauts of such power. As I've already learned in Carleton's first-year History of Canadian Journalism course, it's about time for another useless, time-consuming Royal Commision on the subject of media monopolies. While these commisions typically do recommend positive things, they often succumb to the major peril of academia - no one listens. 

The broader implication of this is even more Americanization of the Canadian media. Our media has been traditionally regionally-based, with large American-style networks such as CTV and Global springing up relatively recently. I'm not trying to sound like a rambling anti-American, but there's something to be said for keeping with our regional traditions. This connects back to the foundation of CityTV itself. When Moses Znaimer and the rest founded CityTV, it was revolutionary - up until then television news typically involved a white man behind a desk talking about pictures. CityTV involved itself with the city of Toronto itself - it was, as it's slogan suggested, everywhere. Reporters roamed the street, the city was in the background, not a pale plywood wall. The community was actively involved and entire neighbourhoods sprung up around it. I was not the biggest fan of CityTV's move to expand into other cities (and whispers say that neither was Moses). CityTV was and is a Toronto thing. However, I was proven wrong, as the formula worked in other regions because it built upon the region itself. 

However, with the merger CityTV will be turned into a youth-targeted network. This destroys the regional-based strength of CityTV. No longer will it be a channel about the city, rather it will now be nationwide network attached to an age demographic rather than urban centres. Bell Globemedia is doing this so that it doesn't overlap with CTV, so they can hit two demographics. Alas, our media is becoming more and more homogenized. Unfortunately, this will just make it easier for possible American interest and influence in the Canadian media. We're falling away from our model of doing things and adopting a more and more Americanized model of mass media.

There are few uniquely Canadian media outlets anymore. The CBC - moreso Radio, which doesn't air shows like Simpsons or Frasier - is slowly looking like a last bastion of the uniquely Canadian mainstream media. The onus is falling more and more on blogs and the like to provide non-homogenized programming and insight - particularly with regional interests. Independant viewpoints are getting more and more rare. It's doubtless that corporate influence in our news and media outlets will be mixed - there will be limitations, but only to the point before people call them on their limitations. 

For now though folks, I leave you with with the (unfollowed) findings and recommendations of the Kent Commission of the 1980's.

"The ownership and control of most newspapers is today highly concentrated under interests whose business concerns extend far beyond the particular newspaper. Much of our press, consequently, is not itself dedicated exclusively to the purposes of the press, to the discharge of its public responsibility. Extraneous interests, operating internally, are the chains that today limit the freedom of the press."
--- Kent Commission on Newspapers, 1981


Also, you may want to check this out.


(3 flesh wounds | Poke me with a stick)

May 22nd, 2006


01:27 am - Tertium non data
Yesterday, my mother told me that the second I confirm that I'll be going to England next Reading Week to let her know, because she had to book the flight. Naturally, I was confused. I thought that I would be paying for this trip out of my pocket. She said that she'd pay for it with points, which we have an abundance of - my family spends far too much money, thus points build up but we cannot afford vacations - so the points just accrue.

I'd be going with my friends Julia and Ian to visit our friend Victoria in Bristol and also to possibly check out some grad school. One school - Cambridge - has been calling out to me for years now. Ever since I read the Eddas in Grade 12 and saw that the majority of the study and translation of Norse works into English was done there. The thought of going to England and learning about Medieval Europe is just so much more appealing than studying it from another continent, far removed, studying cultures that barely even knew that Canada existed.

So, with the trip now much more in the realm of possibility, I made my quarterly visit to the Cambridge home page to marvel at the history and pictures of such a place. It's just so far removed - so different. Far removed from this country and actually attached to what I would be studying - what I have a passion for. Also, to be somewhere different - to be away from here, to be so far...it seems almost like an epiphanic release. Someplace that would be full of accomplishment and possibility. A return to the old in order to reach the new.

That's when I discovered this.

Typically, I had been looking at their MA and PHD in Medieval History. Finding this tickled my academic fancy. Imagine! Studying the pre-Christianized England, Ireland, and Scandinavia. That whole part of the world that was mostly removed from Rome. The other Great North. Studying all this at a faculty that's older than this country. In England! Going to pubs! Being the one with the accent! Being the foreigner! Classiness! Willow trees and tweed jackets and rowing in the Cam river. Visiting sites of old relics. Weekend boats to France or Norway. Teaching! Being a TA seems more and more appealing after this past exam period.

This faculty is a tripos - it rises above a single country. I'd study all of them, but focus on Scandinavia and the Vikings. There's a large focus on sources, texts, literature, myth, and language. This is one of the few places in the English-speaking world that teachers Old Norse. Insular Latin! Old Gaelic!

So this all sounds fantastic. But..I'm scared by this possibility. As great as it is, the one thing that would hold me back would be leaving here. For years. An MA is one year. A PHD is at least another three. I'd go to a place where I know no one, and I'd be leaving my friends and family behind. They'd all be across the ocean. It's terrifying and thrilling. To have a clean slate, but also to be unknown. I've got some firm anchors here.

It's a tiny faculty, hopefully I would meet people. But there's always a terror that I would be utterly alone.

And while I know an absence of a few years would not eliminate my close friends, I'd lose some people that are more on the peripheral, yet these are people I still care about. New friends and old. Four or five years is a long time. People change. Things change. And instead of being there for the gradual process, I'd be away. Far removed from it all so that everything would be a jolt when I were to come back.

If I were to come back. That's a terrifying possibility. My entire family lives within 100km of each other. Being so far is so different and odd compared to that. To never return - it could happen. Who knows?

This is all speculation however. I have years to think about this, if I even get in and if I can even afford it. Despite all my worries, I think that it would be something that I'd really like to do. We'll have to see. I'm scared though, but I suppose that's normal.

There are a lot of paths up ahead.



(6 flesh wounds | Poke me with a stick)

May 10th, 2006


01:15 pm - You got your ball, you got your chain. Tied to me tight. Tie me up again.

 Things I have found while cleaning out my room:

  • My old short story from Writer's Craft.
  • Random scraps of writing.
  • A hundred dollar cheque from Campbell's.
  • The phone number of our chaperones on the Ireland trip.
  • The program from my Grade 8 graduation.
  • My elementary school diploma.
  • Pictures from Algonquin in Grade 12.
  • Pictures from camp in the summer after Grade 6, featuring a very young Lee, a shaggy-haired me, and my crossdressed counsellor.
  • Old McDonald's shiny hockey cards - unopened and still in the foil.
  • The key to the knife rack at Williams-Sonoma Yorkdale (Er...)
  • My admission package from Carleton.
  • All the items from my CSIA Ski Instructor Certification sessions, including doodles of a zombie skiing in my rulebook.
  • The Playboy my cabin bought me at camp in the summer after Grade 7.
  • The membership card to the North York Youth Employment Centre that Stu and I got while looking for employment in Grade 12. This was the same day we realized that Stu knew my cousin Talia.
  • An old McDonald's Magic School Bus toy, which was the bus filled with cards that quiz you in your knowledge of SCIENCE!
  • My not-quite-authentic name badge from Silvercity. It was someone else's, but it said Matt. However, my apparent favourite movie was Return of the Jedi - not true.
  • A Scholastic "Discovery Box" book and activity kit featuring the planets.
  • 50 Cents, Euro.
  • My Grade 11 student card, featuring Fat Matt.
  • The business card of the old Italian man who taught the in-class part of my driving training.
  • A one million dollar bill, American.
  • A Camp Robin Hood Watch.
  • The manual for the game that came with my old Sega Genesis - Toejam and Earl: Panic on Funkatron.
  • A totally awesome Gargoyles keychain.
  • My badge from my old martial arts class, which I new sewed onto anything.
  • More pictures of Lee. For some reason, I have two pictures of him dancing with some girl. He totally gets all the ladies.
  • Old Ghostbusters action figures that I've had since I was probably...three?
  • A cardkey for a hotel in Mt. Tremblant.
  • A totally kickin' Gargoyles keychain.
  • A pen featuring a naked lady. The picture looks like it was taken in 1975.
  • The M, A, T, and E from my oooold name necklace (I had completely forgotten about that).
  • The box for my old i2Go EgO, which was one of the first MP3 players on the market. It's huge and held 128 megabytes. The company went bankrupt.
  • A manual on how to play Magic: The Gathering as well as numerous blue and yellow beads that I think had something to do with Pokemon cards.
  • Numerous LaserQuest scorecards.
  • Lots of documents from Pepsi Get Spotted, including my in-field performance report and a sticker.
  • The log of my first G2 failure, when I hit the curb.
  • The Thank-You card from my sister's Bat Mitzvah I was supposed to give Lee.
  • The log of my pass in the G driving test.
  • The "Super Nice Person" Award that Katie and Roberta sent to me, decorated in Barbie stickers.
  • My Ontario Scholar Certificate.
  • My Certificate of Withdrawl from Prescott House, Carleton University, Ottawa.
  • The script for "Hobo Horror," that horrible movie that Nikki, Murali, and I (or our evil twins, rather) had to star in. It was written by Liz Molnar and Jeff Garner. I miss those two. In the end, I was the killer all along!
  • A birthday card from Anna's parents.
  • The "Garden Pests and Diseases" book my grandfather got me when I was very young. I don't think I ever opened it.
  • A bottle of Green Apple Vodka from...prom(?). It still has about 4 shots in it. Sweet!
  • The CamelBack I used when Stu and I walked downtown/to the lake from TSS.
  • Many Warm Fuzzies from BOSS Retreat.
  • The journal I kept in Ireland, featuring a 13th-century map of the world on it.
  • A guide to hostels in Canada and abroad I got when Danny and I got out ISIC Fake IDs in Grade 12.
  • My old prayer book from Hebrew school.
  • The Cub Book. Yes, for a few months I was a Cub Scout. It was horrible. I didn't earn any badges.
  • My old heavy-duty Guinness bottle opener! Sweet!
  • Numerous old movie tickets.
  • The realization that I need a far larger bookshelf.

That was fun! Sometime in the next few weeks, I'll clean out my closet. I still have a lot of fat-clothes there. It'll be another archaeological dig.

(Also: DONE EXAMS! WHEE!)


(12 flesh wounds | Poke me with a stick)

May 1st, 2006


05:02 pm - I want to ride my bicycle!
It's study time and for some reason my hands have been taking quite the beating lately.

While moving back home on Thursday and Friday, my hands were scraped and cut as hands usually are when you're being tough and manly and lifting heavy objects. HAUGH!

Also on Thursday I burned my right thumb while making some Chicken Parmesan.

Yesterday, while emptying out the poolhouse and putting our backyard furniture back together with my dad and brother, I accidentally sliced my thumb with an exacto-knife.

Today I decided to grab my dad's bike (as my previous two had been stolen), walk it over to the gas station to fill it with air and then ride it around for a bit before going back to studying. After walking with it for thirty seconds, I realized that something was wrong with the front wheel. When I took a look at it upon arriving at the gas station, I realized that it had been warped. My dad had mentioned that he had hit it once or twice with his car while entering out garage.

'Curses and blast!' I thought as I filled my tires with air. My long-awaited cycling adventure would have to wait. However, I figured that with my newly-inflated tires I could get a brief bit of biking in by taking my "special" bike home. So I hop on the seat, set the bike to the gear that I like, and cross the street.

Hooray! I was biking again! The wind was whipping past me, I was speeding along the..

CRACK

WHUMP

SPITTOON!

CEAUCESCU!

BANANARAMA!

My defective wheel popped, unable to handle such warped pressure. I got launched forward and landed flat on the sidewalk. Ow. Luckily, the group of six people at the bus stop four feet away ran over to check if I was alright.

Oh, wait. That's right. They didn't.

They all just kind of stood there as I picked myself up. Don't you just love your fellow man sometimes?

I scraped the hell out of both my hands and my entire left hand has basketball finger. But really, I was alright. A couple cuts and scrapes, nothing big, though my hands are contemplating jumping ship so they won't be so abused. Hopefully they'll have a few injury-free days so they can actually heal before my next wacky adventure.

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